Amazed

It's Saturday evening and Marisa is not with us. She went on vacation with her friend, Liz Barnes, to Florida and then on a cruise to Mexico. This is Marisa's first trip without us but more so without a family member. It's hard accepting the fact that she is growing up too quickly.

Van and I are sitting around and watching Ethan dance to Thai music videos. We are reminded of when Marisa was Ethan's age and she too loved to listen and danced to Thai songs. Many years have passed but we still remember them like it was just yesterday. Marisa brought warmth into my heart and Ethan brought life into my soul.

Van and I were blessed over fifteen years ago with our little girl Marisa. She is our world and I thank God for her everyday. She IS who I wish I WAS when I was her age...loved, cherished, precious, beautiful, strong will, confident, carefree, and so full of hope.

Words can not express the feelings that I have when it comes to our baby boy Ethan! I can't believe that it will be three years in October that I was blessed with another angel. With God's grace, I was given the greatest gift of becoming a mother to the most precious baby boy.

Ethan's disposition is just amazing! He is my sunshine..bringing smiles to everyone. His glance, his eyes, his smiles, his laughter, his hugs, his kisses...so pure and so precious.

Ethan saw our family picture on this blog and pointed to me and said "mom", to his father and said "daddy", to his sister and said "Sa" and then to himself but just looked at me. I told him to say "me" and he said me!

So consumed by my emotions!